breathing & playing

i think i’m falling for asia again. it takes a person :”) it’s been long since i feel so connected with someone mentally emotionally ~ also a leo, more than 10 years : ) it feels right and enough, like home : ) yeah i’m being a bit dreamy and we’ll have to see but real thing feels stronger than the distance between people in the same place : )

thanks the west for helping me to appreciate eastern values more ~ one of which is we are not afraid to care, to love ~ because we have more to give, i guess : )

whichever connection, stay grounded, reach inward and don’t get hung up on anything/ anyone dear : )

he gives that warmth and trust that i would be safe being hung up on him though ~ the asian romance that feelings stay with distance and we’re less needy of physical closeness though we’re very affectionate indeed when we’re with someone

i’ll just keep following my heart and what feels real and it’ll be fine ~ one step at a time

i know i’m not a fan of human politics, power game, whatever game that is not fun if it’s not kind, i’m out

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what has made me feel a bit ill?

sorethroat from teaching? a bit. should keep a warm glass of herbal tea with me next time

walking in the rain the other day? i felt ok as i enjoyed the talked and new friends, could have used my jacket to cover a bit, next time : )

the on and off air conditioner last night? maybe. should avoid direct flow of AC next time #modernity

saigon’s getting a bit colder at night, could close the window a bit more and keep warm

human politics - self guard from some people that i felt last night. it was the push i think. emotional and mental health can affect immune system the most it seems. lesson? observe and avoid diplomacy, which i did mostly. oh well, wounded babies and victims of discrimination, competition etc. not sure i’d like to a farm then, too far with a risk of human politics, no thanks, i guess : )

had steamed rolls afterwards and enjoyed that ~ the relationship with vietnamese food is often honest and healing. i guess because mum is so raw and i grew up with that so i’m not fond of dishonesty, makeup, diplomacy, fakeness, bullshitting - sensitive to those and stay away when i smell it

meditation also helps : ) to see through those and realise they are also victims of these habit energies…

it takes so much to be with the right person at the right time ~ the right attraction, chemistry, connection, height, smile, eyes, spirit, mentality, soul, interests, taste, thinking, feeling, doing, being, temper, touch, kiss, love making, maturity, depth, distance, weight, shape, culture, laugh, finance - if they have too much or not enough it wouldn’t work

a lot of discrimination right